Fates' design

I feel so tense right now, and writing my thoughts out is going to clear my mind. I can say that with an affirmation because I know that it has always helped me calm down, before also, and forever more in the future.

And this very blogging or writing and my freaked up determination has caught me up in a noose.

Since last year I made a list of goals I would want to achieve over the year, marks, talents, health and food and stuff...
So, this year, the year where I graduate from my masters, I has made a list; whose one of the many targets was to score a job before June.

Considering all events planned for the year would go smooth and my exams would be over..
But then, COVID 19 struck, and washed off all plans every single person had made for themselves - personally and professionally.
Which leads to me being a "graduate" without completing her exams!

Yet, I cannot sit idle - if you've read my previous blogs you'd know: I am a mad woman, who cannot sit still, I need to keep myself occupied. All of us need to.
And then, there is a problem of finance - how long can one survive with just savings ?
I need to get a job not only to keep myself busy but also to sustain my family and survive.
We are animals with survival instincts after all..

So, throughout May of 2019, despite my failed attempts at job applications
Just yesterday, I woke up in the morning and spent 1 'productive' hour job searching and applying.

I realized something soon after.


Because, after that job searching, I just felt low and sad and mad - at myself as if I was never enough for any company, for any position and felt useless. I went ahead with my household chores, demanding distraction from that thought. 

Soon after, I felt calm and again at night, just before falling asleep, I sent a few more applications from LinkedIn.

Today though, as soon as I woke up, I checked my phone (common, its not that you've never done it in your life!) and received a message from a Blog company, for the position of a Blog Writer.

Elated is what I felt (and still feel, thus present tense) and I told my sister, Ma doesn't know.
But, after washing the dishes for today I came back to my phone for updates form the said company, instead I got a missed call from another company, an arts company who wants me to work, first hand, being present, at M.G. Road!

That's my second offer. But at M.G.Road
I mean, not that its bad, but now, I got to choose.

WRITING vs 9-5
Intern vs Paid Job
Work From Home vs Work at Company.
No Travel vs Travel

I am conveniently listing my pros and cons I guess.

Maybe I can work at the art company and be a intern writer ?
I am waiting for responses from both of them. I'll probably take up the job.
Although, having no transport, during the times of Covid 19 is going to be a daring risky challenge. 

For a fact I was crying on the inside all these days for a job and getting two opportunities, it feels great (and many other emotion), but lets take a moment to praise Fates' design in my life.

That's all for now.
Lets talk later. 

Your 'awesome' blogger
RK

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