Year 25

25, a nice number. A fancy number for geeks like me who were always a fan of multiples of 5

At my 25th year, I have been put through circumstances in life, that make me wonder ( and get a lil scared ) about the great big wonderous world we live in. My high school English teacher was right when she said I was yet to come out of my shell.

Well, been an observer too long, never liked it from the viewer seat and now am made to play my part in the world's stage, don't like that either. Everything seems screwed up. 

TBH, I am a very slow learner in practical life, and so this is all about the things I have learnt late and will have to remember big time, throughout my life.

25 Things to remember, for life:

1. Never speak, unless spoken to
2. Never speak unnecessarily
3. Never speak ill, lest, try to speak ill lesser everyday
4. Always have a back up plan for any activity you do
5. Time is not the boss of you, that's Rule 408
6. Don't help when not asked | Don't go where not invited | Don't stay where not respected
7. There is a change only you can bring to this world, you matter.
8. Forgiveness is a rare virtue, imbibe it
9. Self worth, self esteem, self confidence and self repespect is how you treat yourself, giving an example to others, on how to treat you. They'ren't just words for empowerment
10. Talk to someone if need be, write if need be, and cry if need be. Sleep, Food and Music help, always.
11. Patience is not easy, courage is not easy, to be brave in the darkest time is not easy. But they are necessary, practice them.
12. Speak about the past if you can remember a lesson from it, or reminiscence a good memory.
13. Listen
14. People are neither punching bags nor therapists. Know your place in their life, and vice versa. Behave accordingly
15. You are a warrior, not a worrier. The courage you seek is inside you
16. Save money, Money moves the world and people like no other force in the world
17. Be Green, Be strong. You have the Will Power to achieve what you want and deserve
18. Smile often, be grateful, laugh wholeheartedly
19. Love equally. Love all.
20. People have hidden doors you are unaware of, at all times be kind. You never know how little kindness can move the world
21. Have hope
22. Stop giving up
23. Don't be ambitious, but be realistic.
24. Think!!
25. Breath, its a crazy ride

Updated on 05th May 2023:
Things I still need to remember

1. Don't do more than what's asked of you, but don't slack off unless it's done on time.
2. Ask your doubts, otherwise your answer will always be NO.

Happy 8th Birthday, to me!

Today marks the 8th year since I've been out of critical clinical depression. (Yay!!)

Sometime around September 2015, I was told to have meds to manage my stress and depression and I couldn't stand it anymore. I used to cry every night. The following October I had serious thoughts of running away or suicide. Every. Single. Moment.

Breathing was hard, existing was painful. I had no strength, physical, mental or emotional to handle my life and I could feel the groundbreaking beneath my feet.

Had Genius not spoken to me, on this day, 8 years ago... I would have been either lost or dead.

So, thank you Genius, for being there for me.
By your grace, I've received a second life; I promise to live this one well.

You'll be proud of me one day. Pakka.

Love, R
17.38
13.10.2021

Amnesia haunting

Amnesia
Its a memory disorder where an individual tends to forget... things, places.. people

2021, 14th February
The first minute plays a song by one of my favorite bands... 5 Seconds of Summer; aka 5 SOS.
Their song, Amnesia.. speaks of how they try to forget the past relationship...how they try to move on

And I
The first minute of 14.02.2021, was me rewinding and playing all the memories I've had with my Genius.
Every moment, more vivid and clearer than before. Every single meeting... in school, inside home, areas around the colony we grew up.

I thought it was just a random thing...
Until the entire week went by and everutime I heard the song, I could rememeber nothing but him
His face, his voice, his kindness... just Him.
My Genius.

Funny thing, life. 12.03 of 14th Feb, 2021... I had to speak to a guy, a prospective match they said.
He was from Pune, they said.
He was from the city where my Genius was from!

The entire week was disturbing! To speak to a guy from the city of Crush and listening to a song that reminds me of him... uuuuuuhhhhhhggg.

Amnesia haunts me, even today.
I hear it and I'm paralyzed for the enitre 4.12 minutes thinking about him... the moments I shared with him!

Trust me, everytime a song comes on, I wish I had amnesia... just wanna forget him for goodness sake!

R
10.10.2021
21:48

Observation from Seat no 46

For a very brief moment when I bit into my pound cake, the vanilla sponge melting into my mouth; I observed the entire train compartment fall silent.
We halt to a stop at Daund Junction, Maharashtra.

I can observe my breath as I breathe in and breath out. Being seated at my upper berth, I observe all the people, at least 50 of them in my compartment... I've seen most of them make their way to the exit or the washroom that lies close to the exit door from my side.

 And everyone on the train going about their lives. None talks. Silent. Dead silent.

And I, from my seat no 46 see everything; hear nothing.

And then a thought, how many stories do we carry within each other when we want to scream out loud but shun the voices inside?!

There are at least 50 stories at this moment, 1 in each and every one of us.

What's your story?

R
10.05

Hakuna Matata

Heyyo folks! Hakuna Matata!! Those who were born in the 19080s and 1990s would know this because of Disney and why not!  Now, if you don...