Heyyo! It's your crabby girl again, on her period, that tags along with a small 8-minute break from procrastination to the class that goes on for 2 hours on teaching Chemistry.
Today I want to talk about "THE BIG PICTURE" or as some people call it "THE BIGGER PICTURE" - when all they mean is "Plan for your future".
I cannot alright. I just cannot.
I mean, I can but then don't I have to consider varying factors?
Like uncertainty of life??
Damn man. I'm scared big time
Planning the future? Yeah, I've done that... plenty of times!! What I never plan is for uncertainty because one can never be sure - and then again - not having a plan keeps one unprepared.
How do you plan for something you are unaware that it's going to happen in the first place?
The big problem with the big picture is I have never planned for a future ever since 12th grade - that, was 6 years ago - I have never planned for it because life never bothers giving me a heads up on the upcoming events of my life and the ways things have occurred to me - from my dads' eye surgery and me coming to Jaipur to Di's marriage I was against but was the same person who made sure that it happened while standing alongside Ma.
I never expected the Msc life to be so hard, I never knew that I, ME! of all the people in the world would be able to lose a friend too! I never knew my family would inwardly disown me, I never knew that pandemic is going to occur and make a hell mess outta my already messed up life!
I never knew these were going to happen and thus was not ready - but one thing I hold on strong to is adaptability. I believe I have the power to adapt and that is going to help me survive the world anywhere I may go.
So, when I so believe in my super special power of adaptability, do I really need to plan for a future? Yes. But do I know what it takes to plan for a future? No. Even if I did, I definitely cannot discount the butterfly effect, at all.
And anything I do, I get negative comments and remarks from the folks that obviously make me disapprove of my own decisions and make me sad. Like some understanding would be nice I guess...
Your crabby blogger
R
