Feelings, the most complex thing in a complex living system.
What are they? and why do we feel them? are constant questions I keep asking myself. It is to make one aware of their state of physical/mental/emotional pain and experience? Is it to make one aware of the other persons' pain?
Why do we feel what we feel and how do we use it to our advantage?
These are questions you can ask anyone, but most will fumble at the mere thought of it; as I did, when I asked myself the same; or like the time when someone asked me the grand purpose of life and existence and of this universe because it didn't make sense to them.
Well, I am just a girl, just like you wonderful humans, I too have my share of personal experiences and I too have still not found the answer to the questions above.
And I just realized as I wrote the last line, does the word 'question' have its root to the word 'quest'? If it does then does it mean we have to tred on a journey, on a quest to find the answers? And how do we make that possible?
Maybe, Life is the journey we tred and travel upon, learning one day at a time, trying to find the answers to these questions. No? (Don't agree? Leave your comments below then. Lets Fight!!) Because I have begun to believe that it is
Besides, one thing I was always fascinated about was "The Purpose of Life" it always made me feel as if there is more to our being than just breathing and doing a 9-5, or washing dishes and changing diapers. Not that it's bad, but there is more to a human than what meets the eye; and we want to reach that epoch, with the lingering problem being, How. How do we manage to reach an epitome of a lifestyle by not knowing how to get there? Maybe, this is where we make a path of our own when we cannot find a road to where we want to go.
It's just, sometimes I feel so much as 20 different emotions in 30 seconds and sometimes I just feel plain and numb for 2 hours straight. Funny, I really don't know what I feel now - it's like I have to submit an article in another one hour while not knowing how to even go about the article! It's just plain right now, neither stressed nor tensed.
But I guess I am not alone, there must be someone who feels like this once in a while and that's okay by me. Maybe it's you, or the person next to you, or the person whom you remembered when I told 'em to you. Either way, I know I am not alone, who feels. We all do.
Such complicated feels we all feel, so many feelings that can be distinguished with a thin line margin of difference.
Like, happy, ecstatic, elated, joy/joyous, they all mean almost the same but aren't. Then there are feelings like anger, stress, sadness, sorrow, pity, envy, jealousy - emotions that are far apart from each other and have different states of mind.
Sometimes I feel an emotion and I cannot place it under a certain type. Like when I got the job of a content creator, I was elated that I have a job and can keep myself not just busy but productive; yet I also felt a pinch that I have to cut time from watching anime - from 6 episodes per day to 2 or 3 because I choose to put my work first. We get to feel so many emotions for the same reason, and I kind of find that funny as well as intriguing.
But do you ever feel that feelings are just sensations, your mind gets?
Like, you experience heat and the cold and colour and dark and pain by your physical being, so what if emotions are those that can be perceived by your mind, redirecting you back to your mental health and well being?
After all, it's your mind and your feelings. And you might want to control it because it may seem cool to be like ' Oh I am strong, I feel no pain' 'I have my emotions in control, I'll be fine' but in my fair and honest opinion, it is not. It is neither cool nor healthy for anyone to dominate their emotions - not that one shouldn't control.
Understand the difference. Don't dominate, but control.
Do you feel angry? Okay. That was Step 1: Identifying the emotion.
Step 2: Identifying the cause. Try to figure out why you are feeling, the way you are feeling. The factors that led you to this state of being, identify them and see how relevant it is to bother you.
Take control of the factors. There are not more than 3 underlying causes, 1 of them being the centre of the issue
Step 3: Feel the emotion, but don't move. (Especially if it is an emotion that can cause a wreck, then be patient, feel the emotion and do not move) Angry? Stay in Anger, feel it coursing through your body. Feel the blood being pumped faster, Adrenaline coursing through your body, the entire system in fight mode. Happy? Smile, and spread the infectious goodness; just don't be crazy to things around you in motion
Step 4: Control the emotion, don't dominate it. You are feeling it for a reason, that causes the emotion. Allowing the emotion to be expressed is necessary, now you are aware of your existential state. Bring it down to a ground state. Shun all the reasons and causes. Its time to face the problem and run towards vanquishing it rather than letting it disturb your inner peace
Step 5: Try to use it to your advantage. Whenever I get angry at anyone at home or work, I choose best to not respond till my anger waves off, thus letting me concentrate on my work; sometimes I just watch an episode or 2 of my anime and I am back in the field with a new form. Getting over the past. It is not easy, but necessary, and the smartest move that there is to do would be to deviate some time to yourself after a moment of agony. Ultimately, learn to be patient. It will guide you to peace. Inner peace, zen-like peace, the one Po talks about in KungFu Panda! - Nah, I was just messing around.
Or was I serious?
That, I'll leave up to you for the free guess
But all I know is, that emotions and feelings, although complex, is an integral part of human lives, development, and evolution, with no exclusion to animals. Feel it, in fact, I'd say - SAVOUR IT! Because you only live once. and as Will Trainor, my fave guy from Me Before You says, " You only get one life, it's your duty to live it to your fullest"
Rajeshwari
