random rants #1

 It's 10.33, I'm listening to Khalasi from youtube, the weather is cloudy with a chance of showers around 12 pm and I'm married, sitting on the bed wondering, "How do I utilize my time today?"


This feeling visits me often... all the time on the world doesn't seem enough to do the work I need to accomplish - the home, the job search, the PHD research proposal, the Diploma in Cancer Bio course, the Pedigree chart workbook!

So much to do, so less time!

Maybe I can start working faster.

Maybe I can start working at a proper place that's not a bedroom

Maybe... there must be a way to break this cycle...

It's too guilt-trippy.

this laptop soesn't charge properly damn it!

my stuff are messy, the head, the thoughts, #struggling with clarity.

im turning 28 in 2 weeks. fml.


sequences and consequences

I'm a lot of things. 
Smart, beautiful, funny, creative.
But I'm also lazy, procrastinator, easy going. 

And then what happens when I lack discipline at the time of need?
Adverse effects. A cascade of unhappy events.

This was bound to happen.

Never have I ever:
  • Been in trouble because I followed rules
  • Given others trouble by being on time
  • Gotten into trouble because I had a regime and a discipline for myself.

You know, there's a famous physics law - the 3rd law of motion, that states 
"every action has an equal and opposite reaction"
I wish someone had told me this is true for life too.

Every Action and Inaction taken / done / made - has a specific consequence - that also ripples with tidal effects.

And recently, my life has full of it.
Every action I made has an effect on 3 immediate people who are either associated with the task or near me.

And every inaction that goes away unnoticed and untended to leaves an impression lasting for life - just that, we won't know it now. It's always taking it's time... the snowball rolls slowly (or so we think, but let's be real, everything - everything falls with the same acceleration due to gravity)
and then - everything that's good or bad falls - maybe out of place or in place and this clouds our minds to chaos and disorder.

And that's when we got to do a few things:
* breath. slow down.

* trace your steps as what went wrong and when (throw in a 'why' to justify and feel less guilty xP )

* deal with those emotions - mostly, just sit with them. let them flow, welcome them, watch them, and don't react to it, respond rather. let them leave in peace 

* plan your next steps

* chart out sequences and consequences of the actions you're yet to take.

* try to be prepared for every curveball life throws at you

* keep space for uncertainty and uncountable factors

and lastly,
* TAKE ACTION WITHIN ITS DUE TIME.
Respect time before it loses its respect for you.

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