I want to work on TSAU, I also want to teach in Unacademy [part time is still fine]
I want to pursue my Ph.D. [but i have a feeling I'll be pursuing it later in life]
and I am thinking of taking up B.Ed... want to take up on an IBEC certification.
Feeling stuck never helps.
I don't know when people move in or out of the house for any work while I'm upstairs, let alone when I've closed the doors.
I want so many things, but I seem to be binding myself at home, when I know I need to be out to get things done. And somehow, I always keep limiting myself to go out and get what I want or what I need.
People around me are trying many things and I struggle with consistency! Gosh, why!
I'm never able to set dedicated hours to yoga, or CSIR!
Moreover, it's easy for me to find 10 minutes for Netflix, because all I'll do is continue a story in my mind anyways... but that can't be the same for learning something.
To quote something from yesterday, Hubby had laptop work that I said I'd do.
I was able to be in my room for about 90 minutes or less... and yet, when I was working on his work [DE, I did a good job btw.] I was called down thrice... and each time I was called, I had to review and them resume because he had done some portions, so I had to be extra careful.
would they have called me if I said i have office work?
would they have called Hubby instead?
IDNK. I do not know.
but, i really dont appreciate interrupptions during my work hours, I don't know how others work, but when I am in a zone, I need to be left to myself.
I can engage within my sear for a minute or less.
is that my problem?
why is it so difficult to have a routine?
why is it so easy to break one?
P.S. CoreMemory: Dinner with Athreya fam at Go Native, Sadashiv nagar, after Vinay anna discourse on Secrets of Narasimha at Sri Venugopala Swami Temple. - 19th April 5.45 - 9.45 pm
divine bliss.
